que pasa

I read this today and found it gives voice to something I have been struggling with a long time.  I'm not there yet at the position of rest, but the desire to just give it all up and let Papa handle things without my interference has become increasingly strong, especially over these past few months.

"My God, I wish to give you the gift you so much desire; I wish to commit myself to you once and for all, so there shall be no taking back.  I cannot commit myself into your hands, O God, I cannot do it; but yet I can commit myself into your hands; for though I cannot keep myself there, your fingers can hold me there, your strong, gentle fingers always giving way and never letting go; your wise subtle fingers, wrestling so gently against my puny rebellions, that I tire myself trying to climb out of your hands, and come to rest at last in those wounded palms."
- Austin Farrer, quoted in Philip Yancey's Prayer

Incidentally, I am finding Prayer to be an excellent book.  It's about whether prayer makes any difference.  I'm making my way through it very slowly and it has provided good food for thought.  Grab a copy if you can.