que pasa

Was talking to Jukebox the other day and we were planing our Fall 2012 Europe tour to 10 countries.  Pretty excited about it because i've never toured Europe before, except for popping in and out of the UK, Holland and Finland for work a bit.  So we were budgetting and talking about saving up and stuff, and how we were going to prepare (like making a friend from every country we wanted to visit), and couchsurfing and stuff. 

Fall 2012 is a long time more though.  But it's the furthest i've planned ever.  I realize that i don't have a mid-term plan or a long-term plan.  It bothers me from time to time that i don't know where i want or hope to be.  I think 4 years ago i was pretty career-minded and wanted to climb up the ladder of success in the 1st company i worked for.  Then i switched career paths and in my present job, there isn't a "ladder" to climb anymore, i do well when the companies I am servicing do.  So there isn't a career goal so to speak.

I've been wondering if it's ok not to have mid or long term plans.  It bugs me sometimes that I don't.  Truth is, i don't know where i will be next September.  All i know is my contract got extended another year so this is where i'll be.  And I know that for now, i am in the right place because Papa has been doing some pretty neat stuff in the past year i've been here, and there's more good stuff to come.  And i think there are some things that i'm meant to do for the year coming up here. 

It's when i think of how i can trust Papa to take care of me that i feel better about not fixing my own plans.  I'm learning that he does have better things in store for me if i would just actually look to him more.  And he is taking care of my family than i could ever do myself.  The key is to actually count on him i guess.